Grief Sucks Man

Years ago I was overwhelmed with grief, depression, and anxiety about how to live without my Daddy.

Wrote this article about how I dealt with and continue to deal with it. I hope each of you can find your moment of happiness and let it pull you back into your light.

Grief sucks Man
Just when you think you are over the grief it pulls ya back in.

Man, I envy those that can’t feel the deep crevice in their heart …
I feel it now it pulls at me all the time … it waits…

Grief sucks Man
Just when you think you are over the grief it pulls ya back in.

DARK is so Dark and so quiet in this crevice…
I turn on the button for the lights afraid of what I will see…

My light shines on my daddy holding me as a newborn baby…

I breathe at the moment … I miss him so much … I still find it so hard to Say Daddy .. even typing I have tears and I hold my breath until I gasp and oh lord I focus on my breathing and the tears slide down over my cheeks and down my chin .. one tear finds its way to my lip and then my tongue a large drop and a touch of salt…

Then I think how complex my body is. I think of Daddy and a tear is formed element of water .. water can calm and I feel calm…
love you, Daddy …

not so bad in here .. a small Julia Nan in her Daddy’s hands … safe .. loved … Daddy brings his baby girl to his lips and kisses his Julia Nan on her tiny forehead.

Slowly the sub floats to the surface.

Well, Grief you may think you have won .. but no…
I found a moment in time I can visit and know a Father’s love …such a nice moment…